The Lord's Love

As I thought about what I'd like to write about for today's blog, what's clearest at this moment is the Lord's love for me. Just that. Wonderfully that. Affirming, securing, connecting. Totally unrelated to what I do for him. He loves me. God, do I need that. If you need that, ask him to pour his love on you, into you, right now.

God, we need you so badly. How much mess there is in the world, just because we don't know that you love us. That's how it all started isn't it, in the Garden? "No, he doesn't really love you, he's holding out on you. He's stealing from you, withholding, acting like he loves you, when he is really selfish, calculating -- he doesn't really love you." "Master, I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. So I was afraid...." (Matt 25:24-25)

I think all kinds of things. I worry about doing the right thing, if I've gotten done what I need to, if I've "satisfied" him. Awful. I'm sorry. How would I feel if my child were thinking that about me? I mean, I want to please you, yes, but the fear and the worrying...

Thanks for the reminder. You love me. The rest, we'll do together. And you'll love me regardless, no matter the successes or failures. Can I live in that place? Well, at least I can try to remember what you showed me today. No, what I really need to do is just be quiet and let you remind me, tomorrow.